Legen wait for it.... DARY!

Lost, Star Trek, Alias, Cloverfield, Mission Impossible 3. Who is the director, creator and writer of these terrific accomplishments? Well obviously someone with great talent, which narrows my list down to about 3 people. If you guessed J.J. Abrams then your CORRECT! This 44 year old mastermind just so happens to have created some of the best media creations in our time. With his twist and destiny for everything he does he has now come upon his 3rd season of in my opinion one of his best creations yet. Hint: Its teleportation, reanimation, mutation, astral projection, etc.

The answer is (drum roll please) FRINGE! This Sci-fi extravaganza has taken people off their feet and dropped their jaws into a parallel universe of something called Fringe science. Where nothing is ordinary but extraordinary. 'The story revolves around three of the most unlikely allies- a young, beautiful and determined FBI agent, a brilliant scientist who has spent the last 17 years in a mental institution and his sardonic and roughish son - as they investigate a series of bizarre deaths and disasters known as 'the Pattern.' The three begin to suspect that someone is using the world as a laboratory. And many clues lead them to Massive Dynamic, a shadowy global corporation that may be more powerful than any nation.'



As your reading your probably thinking that this is not your type of show. Now I come from a christian family but my parents still like a little action and mystery too their lives. This is a cop show twisted with science and everything you have never seen before. Relax one night, watch it online or even on Saturday nights at 11c on Fox. This show will blow your mind, just as it has for millions of viewers.

Twitter School

So recently I been really getting hooked on Twitter, and its so addicting especially when you are getting contacts in the film industry. My method? I am going to continuously tag them in my tweets and hopefully they will get the point. However with my decision to not go to school this year (which was quite heartbreaking) I know feel like I'm doing nothing with my life. I researched schools only a year long too save time and now I am on my 2ND year off from school, go figure. However in the end it came down to my trust in the school, unfortunately Toronto Film School was not very organized or in my opinion qualified. Changing the start dates without telling me, course description but I guess you can do that when your not government funded. As of now I am leaning towards Humber or Sheridan college here in Ontario however the courses are 3 -4 years. If I knew what I was doing last time I could be in my second year and almost done if not half way through. I just learned however that New York Film School, which apparently celebrities send their kids there for a degree, is coming to Toronto this Sunday and Monday for a question and answer period, I am thinking about going. The problem is the school is so expensive.

Any ideas?

Chuck Season 4!

Its the time of year again when my favourite nerdy yet epically fantastic show comes out with its 4Th season! It comes out Today!!! Monday September 20Th 8/7c on NBC! Here is a season 4 promo to get you interested and excited!



Also here is one of my fan-made videos. It just shows how overly school girl crazy I am about this show



Watch! And see what my fantasy's are all about.

Check In

As always its been a while since I have written, but don't get me wrong I've been reading..... lots.
About a month ago I finished a 2 book series, currently a third one in the making by Maggie Stiefvater with her fantastic creative skills in her brilliant novel Shiver and its follow up novel Linger.

Shiver: "For years, Grace has watched the wolves in the woods behind her house. One yellow-eyed wolf—her wolf—is a chilling presence she can't seem to live without. Meanwhile, Sam has lived two lives: In winter, the frozen woods, the protection of the pack, and the silent company of a fearless girl. In summer, a few precious months of being human... until the cold makes him shift back again.

Now, Grace meets a yellow-eyed boy whose familiarity takes her breath away. It's her wolf. It has to be. But as winter nears, Sam must fight to stay human—or risk losing himself, and Grace, forever."

This novel you may mistaken for another rendition of Twilight, without the vegetarian vampires. However I found it too be much more interesting, with no connection to Stephanie Meyers transformation and existence of werewolves. The existence of these werewolves in Shiver makes you think that if there really were werewolves in existence this is probably how they would have come about.

To take a turn of events now I am reading The Bad Place by Dean Koontz, and although I love all of Dean Koontz' books I must say this one is oddly weird. I am only about 100 pages into the novel but so far I have found a cannibal, a man who has no idea who he is but always finds blood on his hands when he wakes up from sleep, and two twin girls who has an odd way with the animals. To make this book even crazier apparently they are all related, with some kind of super powers. When did Dean's books become all about the supernatural?

To add in a little interesting facts, yesterday about 50 celebrities went up for bidding to raise money to build houses for the less fortunate. So far the highest I've heard is $6,600 and that was this morning for my favourite actor Zachary Levi from 'Chuck.' The prize? Believe it or not the only prize is to be followed on Twitter by the celebrity you buy for 90 days. Is it worth it? I don't think so, but then again if your rich and have $6600 to spend, why not waste your money.

What are some of the books you have read recently? And whats your view point on the crazy celebrity bidding?

Random Workings

Hiddy Ho there neighbour! Its been a while, but hey what can I say I just don't find anything inspiring anymore. I guess that's what happens when life gets in the way. These past couple months have been stranger than usual. I'm finding I don't have my same bounce as I once did, which in a way is startling me. What does that mean? Am I maturing?!! Never. Mature people don't become boring, they just stop talking about things that once they thought funny, but really is juvenile. It almost feels like I just pass through the days instead of living them. I mean I am hanging out with friends, but for some reason that just doesn't do it. I keep thinking back to this past winter, when everything was peachy! I loved life, I was happy at work and with everyone at work. There was no problems in the world. It was truly great! Why did it stop?

Today things seemed brighter......I thought, but a friend just came back to work and noticed I wasn't myself. Hmmmm I thought I was doing better. If he noticed that, what has everyone else been noticing? We were just talking and he got me thinking. What is it that has changed? Is it the fact that I have to go to school soon? That my future is not in focus? Or that I will be losing my best friends to school again? It almost feels like at this moment in time that when I do go away to school that everything and everyone that I met this past year will just disappear and seem like a figment of imagination. Who knows right?

On a happier note, I loved my stay in Newfoundland and every morning when I get up I keep wishing that when I step outside I would be smelling salt water instead of freshly cut grass. However if I get what I want in life I should be moving down there in a few short years. Give me time to get my career started and on its way.

This weekend I will be going to the Fan Expo here in Toronto. I'm excited! It should be a blast! I will make sure to keep you posted. Also there is a photo contest at work that I am going to enter into. Send your good luck vibes!!

Friday the 13th on the 14th

I do believe there is a trend with me getting the 'Friday the 13Th' on the 14Th. Today hit me pretty harder than usual. I got up as and just stuck around my room until I had to leave for work. I was just pulling off my street a little ways and was watching my gas light praying I had enough to get to work and back when I glanced up and saw a cop car parked in someones drive way. Looking at my speed I realized I wasn't paying attention and I was pulled over for going 28km over the speed limit. This being my first time with an offence I freaked out, started hyperventilating. Unfortunately my parents weren't home yet from their vacation so I had no one to talk to. Thankfully the cop dropped the charges from $158 and 3 points to $52 and 0 points. However because I just got back from holidays myself I haven't had time to update my insurance form which was 3 days over due, so I got charged for an extra $65.

Getting to work 2 minutes late, I felt pretty shitty, and was quite antsy about calling my parents and telling them when I got home. Thankfully however work was good, I had great customers and as always my co-workers were amazing.

Once I got home however I called my older brother and asked him if I should call my parents and tell them today or wait till they get home tomorrow. He suggested that I at least call my Dad and tell him. Thankfully my parents called him first and my brother told my Dad that I got a ticket and that he should call me. A couple minutes later, my parents surprise me by not freaking out and were actually telling me it wasn't a big deal and that it was just a life lesson. Who knew?

As insignificant as it is to the ticket I also burned my lip tonight drinking tea. Man like can suck. I swear I didn't walk past a black cat or under a ladder. All in all after a few tears I know feel more calm.....and slightly lonely now that I am home by myself. It just makes me think more and more about my Dog that passed away a year mid September. Gone but never forgotten.

Summer Holidays

Today is day 7 of my holidays and it is amazing! Believe it or not I am actually really enjoying Newfoundland this summer. Its been at least 3 years since I have enjoyed it this much to actually start seeing myself living here. Work started to get on my nerves and I find the more I work there the more it effects me. Thankfully however I am going to school in the middle of October and work will no longer be a 5 day a week task. However the idea of change and school scares me, but in the end it will be worth it.

While my parents drove down to Newfoundland, one of my best friends drove me to the airport to fly out 2 days later. On the following day after a red eye flight my parents were suppose to pick me up, but it was not the welcoming I was expecting. On the boat from Nova Scotia to Newfoundland my parents were delayed by 3 hours longer than expected which left me waiting in the airport for 3 hours. That did not impress me.

This past week I have been staying at my brothers and his newly wed wife's place which is probably why I am enjoying my stay more. As much fun as it is to see my mothers family, there is nothing to do in the small little town. At least here I can get Internet and watch TV when I'm bored.

This past weekend my Fathers family had a reunion and it was a blast! It was fun hanging out with my cousins whom some I haven't seen in years and others I just enjoy hanging out with all the time. We had some great laughs and photos. The biggest part was the fact that last time we had a family gathering like this one was my grandmothers 90Th birthday party. A week later she passed away. The hardest part of family reunions is saying goodbye and unfortunately I had to do that earlier today, not knowing when it is that I will be seeing any of them next.

Better get back to big brothers.

Niagara Falls

This past week a couple of my friends and I took off to Niagara Falls to get away from eveything. It was amazing. Not only did it feel like a break from work and reality but it was also a lot of fun! We goofed off a bit, especially in the Wax Museum with all the stars and movie characters, had several laughs and was even shocked when snow came out of the fans above us in the Ripley's Moving Theater.

We all decided to get up early and leaving at the nice time of 6:30 AM we were on our way. Making good time we arrived in Niagara Falls at 9:00 AM but after a while realized that I locked both the spare keys and my own keys in my bag in the trunk. Now you have to know me, I do this quite a bit and I am actually surprised I haven't got CAA yet. However this was the trifecta, this time I brought a spare pair but ended up putting it in the same bag as the main pair which was in the trunk. Thankfully my friend Kim had CAA, so we called them and in a record of 15minutes they were there opening my car. We had some great laughs over that. Even some people from work saw the photos online and started asking questions. Thankfully now however my friends know not to tell anyone........ lets hope.

Two days ago I started a 365 Day photo/ journal with my friend Jess, so far it hasn't been that bad. I am trying to not write it in a way that sounds like a diary: Dear diary, I woke up late this morning and wasn't sure what to do? As a kid those are the type of entries that I would write, but seriously? Its not going to answer you back. So this time I am just trying to stick with the facts. Such as yesterday one of my friends at work saw a kid come through the line-up, noticing her she says "aww look at that kid in the rabbit costume" Interested I look over to find a kid in a FROG costume. After correcting her and laughing so hard I started crying we came to the conclusion that as a teacher she has to stay away from any type of Science classes. If your kid comes home saying rabbits say ribbit, then you know who to come to.

This and That

Its been a while since I have really done anything. Which is nice sometimes just being able to relax, but I also neglect the things I enjoy like writing and video editing. So far this summer has been fun, but I'm also finding it to be very busy between hanging out with friends, getting through my stack of novels, comics and movies that everyone is trying to get me into. So this morning sitting here with my coffee I am going to do a little writing before I head to work.

Last week I finally got around to finishing the Lost series, and any of you who watched the show would know how confusing and slightly frustrating the ending is. Its not something you would expect because in my opinion it wasn't even a good option. However now that the show is over I continue to buy the magazines and trying and figure out what was going through Damon Lindelof and J. J Abrams head when they wrote it.
My friends also got me started on the show Supernatural, and now a month later I have completely finished all 5 seasons and am awaiting the sixth. That show is amazing, with ghost hunters Dean and Sam Winchester, two brothers thrown into a world everyone thought was made up. However later in the season the show brings a different twist when destiny comes knocking and Angels and Demons are introduced wanting the two brothers to be vessels for the two deadliest angels Lucifer and Micheal so the battle can begin and whoever wins gets full rein of earth. Very intriguing.

Last week the Twilight Saga Eclipse came out into theaters and my friends went and bought me tickets a month in advance for the first day. It wasn't that bad. Being a young girl who has read all the books, I have to say that the other movies were quite a disappointment. I mean we all know Kristen Stewart leaves her mouth open way to much, she needs an elastic to snap it back, as well as Robert Pattinson who may have a little talent but all in all he's got nothing. Not even looks. In the first movie his pain looked a little too whiny then scary which I felt it should have been portrayed as, while in the second one he took his shirt off and every girl screamed at the anorexic boy. I mean seriously? David Slade knocked this movie out of the park. It was directed so well that it was pretty close to being a horror movie with just a little more blood, and more screaming. It would have been amazing.

For now I am going to leave you with my all time favourite song this month. Terrified by Katherine McPhee Ft Zachary Levi

The Movie Dirty Dozen

Alright so I am a little behind on this one, but wow yesterday was crazy fun. This brilliant idea for this blog post comes from Alex J. Cavanaugh, the author of the new book CasaStar which sounds fantastic. So here I am blogging about my favourite 12 movies.

1. While You Were Sleeping. OK its a girl movie I agree but its just so funny and adorable. Sandra Bullock's acting is once again priceless with this romantic comedy about finding true love while already in love.


2. Robin Hood Men in Tights. Fantastic parody of Robin Hood Prince of Theives. Cary Elwes plays Robin Hood perfectly with his witty humor and sarcasm. Between Ahchoo, Blinkin, and Maid Marions chasidy belt you can't help but laugh out loud.

3. Made of Honor. For me its not so much Patrick Dempsey but the hope and chemistry that Dempsey and Michelle Monaghan bring to the screen. This romantic comedy is most defiantly meant for girls, but I have known a few guys that enjoyed it as well, and what makes the movie even better you say? Well its the soundtrack, some very Celtic feeling songs that just go so perfectly with the movie, and not to mention 'Love Story' by Sara Bareilles which is both upbeat and great.

4. Count of Monte Cristo. Perfect movie set back in the 1800's about jealousy, back stabbing and revenge. The wit and action brought into this movie makes it one of the best movies you will ever see in quite a while.

5. When in Rome. This outrageously funny and romantic movie which was performed brilliantly by Kristen Bell who yet again still has to let me down, her acting scores again with Josh Duhamel who's puppy dog looks and clumsiness brings brightness to the screen.

6. 30 Days of Night. OK I agree the ending sucked, at least the first time you watch it. But if you think about the ending you actually realize its brilliant. Movies have become predictable with the happy endings. Everyone expected him to live in the end, I mean seriously he only had to wait another hour max before they left. However he's portrayed as a hero, he saves others from dying including his wife who he still loves despite their marital problems. David Slade's directing techniques was also brilliantly done, that guy works miracles with movies and creates the perfect shots.

7. Star Wars. The best sci-fi films made in my opinion. The best were the older films, with Luke Skywalker and Han Solo. The special effects look horrible but the storyline beats the new ones out of the water. Don't get me wrong I love Hayden Christensen, but the second one was just a teenage love story while the last one he whined way too much for my taste. Not to mention the first movie. What was that? It was a glorified kids movie, the only good thing about that movie was martial artist/actor Ray Park.

8. Zombieland. I have no idea what is with our generation at this time but Zombie are the shiz. Between Left 4 Dead, Shawn of the Dead and Zombieland, people are going crazy for brains. This action, comedy is hilarious with Woody Harrelson's crazy techniques and craving for Twinkies, and Columbus's rules for how to kill and avoid zombies - Double Tap. Not only was this film well written with its rules and lack of real names, but it was also well edited with the special effects.

9. The Day After Tomorrow. Its something about the end of the world that catches my attention. You would swear by the amount of times I can watch this movie that I was looking for something I could do to prevent this global warming Apocalypse. However maybe its the fact that I really like cold colours and this movie has a beautiful landscape while its all iced over.


10. The Proposal. Its another chick flick yes, but what can I say I'm a girl and its genetically encoded into us to like movies with Ryan Reynolds shirtless. Sandra Bullock and Ryan Reynolds hit their acting out of the park on this one. This romantic comedy is down right hilarious with Ryan singing 'It Takes Two' by Rob Base and Sandra Bullock dancing and singing to 'Get Low' by Lil Jon.

11. Italian Job. The idea of a robbery not once but twice for the same gold with boats and Mini Coopers and reckless driving sounds amazing. To tell you the truth I was sold on the mini coopers. This well casted movie is funny and brilliantly made.


12. For the final 12 the movie choice is: Ninja Assassin. Kick ass ninjas flipping, running and fighting. Enough said.

If you haven't had the chance to watch any of these movies, I suggest them all.

What is up with Dreams?

Dreams are a succession of images, thoughts, sounds or emotions that pass the mind during sleep. Are these emotions or images running through our head while we are awake but are not aware of it? If not then how are we able to conjure up a dream based upon a person that we haven't thought about for days?

What do our dreams mean? Are they telling us what we really want subconsciously? Or is it just playing mind tricks, giving us a different scenario of life. Such as the dreamer being in a different body but still the same personality and emotions? Having a different life.

The past couple weeks I have been having crazy dreams, from being an FBI agent and being chased by a dinosaur through New York City, everyone from my elementary school being sent back to grade 8 because the government ordered it but all of us already graduated High School last year. To last night having a dream about being a slimmer, gorgeous me, hanging out with friends and dating a guy from work. I mean the dream was fantastic but what does it mean?

Is the first dream telling me that I should go into the FBI? If so then it would make sense, I have never felt like I have truly been cut out for film, its a dream yes, but the chances of getting in? Slim. Is my second dream telling me how much I have changed over the years? From this shy girl whose face always went beet red when talking to now saying whatever I want to say? What about last nights dream? I believe that one is just showing me what I want my life to be like. I have emotional problems, I can't hug people that aren't my parents without feeling weird, or hold hands with anyone. I would love to be like those people but I can't. So whats my dream telling me when I am able to do that?

What are some weird dreams you have had? Did you ever wonder what they mean or just slip by it?

Friday the 13th?

Is it Friday the 13Th? Wait....I'm a little late. OK so then why did my day suck so much? OH YEAH!!! That's right, it just follows me around. I always wonder that if I completely ignored everyone and everything today would it have turned out different? Like would one of my now favourite shows, which by the way has been over for three years but I just finished have ended better? Would the plan that they had for season 4 be different and make me feel more comfortable with the show ending the way it did. I mean if they didn't plan on skipping four years of her life it might have been worth it. Unfortunately life doesn't happen that way, and so it should go with television shows that go from year to year. That maybe if I woke up on a better day that I would have been able to hang out with my best friends at work and not get told off, then come home and find that my vision of one of my favourite fictional characters hasn't been ruined by their season 4 display of action?

Last night, or shall I say this morning, really really early I couldn't fall asleep. So I took two gravols to find out that it didn't help but just made me more tired. So getting up this morning I grab a cup of Joe and head to work. Which by the way, I had today off but picked up a shift for the fact that I need money for work and wanting to hang out with my friends. Just to find out that one of the guys I work with at the retail store forgot to tell me that two cases of water was at the bottom of the cart and I completely did not see it. After all isn't that what packers suppose to do? Its in the job description after all. So when they get to the door and get their receipt checked the people find the water and hence I get a door audit. Do I get in trouble. Yes. Was it my fault? Partially I mean I guess I have to be paying attention as I am serving bitchy people who would rather tell me off than help me out, and then figure out their receipt, be kind and ring everything through.

Then of course only an hour later I am joking around with a co-worker/friend and one of my managers and we are joking about me being a Newfoundlander, and of course a member thought I said something "rude" and complained about us. I mean excuse me? Are you saying I was being rude to myself? Cause after all I was talking about myself in that situation. Was I ignoring you? No I don't think so. I answer all questions, I help everyone pay and smile. Wait! that's it! I didn't give you an ear to ear grin? Wow, I'm sorry next time I will make sure not to smile. I'm sure you will complain about that as well. All in all today was horrible.

Would it have changed if I just stayed in bed? Would I have been better off passing away in the middle of the night happy knowing that I get to work with my best friends the next morning and that my favourite show did not let me down? Or how about tonight, having one of the worst possible days. Does everything turn out crappy because of the day your having? Or would everyone have seen a different last episode if I was in a better mood? I guess all this tells me is don't get obsessed with shows. Don't get too cocky with life.

Home Sweet Home

You never know how much you love your life until you go away from it for a while. Coming back I missed my country, I missed my home and I missed my friends. Although in this whole process, coming home had one problem. I now miss my family. I have three older brothers and in Mexico the last one got married. I am happy for him and to tell you the truth don't really notice a difference. He wasn't home all that much to begin with, however I keep thinking that it is going to hit me soon enough.

As for Mexico, I wouldn't go again. I mean it was a nice experience and my brother has awesome wedding photos, but Mexico for me was not all it was cracked up to be. I was expecting to go to Mexico and eat spicy food that makes my eyes water and my nose run. However the hottest thing I ate while I was down there was dipping sauce from when we got pizza at Domino's Pizza in the airport. Out of 22 people there about 9 got sick, including myself. Weather it was heat stroke or the food we ate, a lot of people just didn't feel right. Including my mother who is still sick from catching some kind of bacteria while she was there. All and all however the trip was beautiful. I did get some what of a tan, which I think was pretty good considering the fact that I don't tan and am one of the pastiest people I know.

When I got home I was glad to be here, seeing everyone again was fantastic. However yesterday I seem to have caught the flu bug and have been feeling really lousy the past couple of days. Which brings me to the question of why is it when we get sick we always want our mothers? It seems odd. Why not our fathers, or friends? I am hoping I will be over it by tomorrow. I have plans to go see Prince of Persia with some friends, and also have to work. So I can't miss that.

As for not commenting on every ones blogs, I promise I will do that as soon as I am up and running again. Have a good weekend!

Mexico

Here I am in the main entrance, the only place for Internet, in Cancun Mexico. Its cloudy yet hot, and its really nice to just relax. Although I must admit I do miss constantly being busy. I'm not one of those people who can just lay there and stare at a ceiling for hours on end, and although the sea is rough and is filled with coral, the pools are fabulous. Sitting by the pool drinking virgin pina coladas is fantastic. The only problem with this trip, is it would be perfect with my friends here. Yes my family is here, but because it is my brothers wedding everyone is so busy planning that and fussing around. I have only been here for two days now, so I will update everyone when I get back and let you know how it went. For now here is some photos. Enjoy

I've Been Tagged

So I have been tagged, by Shannon over at Faith, Hope and Love, which is actually kind of cool.

Question 1. Where were you 5 years ago?
I was just finishing 9th Grade. That was a good year, however I am happier where I am today.

Question 2. Where would you like to be 5 years from now?
In 5 years time I would like to be finished one film and hopefully have it in the theaters for my family and friends to see. I would like to own my own home and travel quite a bit.

Question 3. What was (is) on your list to do today?
Well today I had to go back to work after having 2 days off, which wasn't all that bad. Later today I might hang out with a friend, maybe get some gas in my car.

Question 4. What 5 snacks do you enjoy?
Chocolate covered almonds, M&Ms, apples, smoothies, cheese and crackers, and ice cream.

Question 5. What would you do if you were a billionaire?
If I was a billionaire I would pay off everyone in my immediate families debt. Pay a contractor to fix up the house we live in now and to build my parents dream home in Newfoundland. I would go to Vancouver Film School instead of Toronto Film School, invest, buy myself a new car. Pay off my friends debt, and travel.

Ok so now I guess I have to tag 5 people. So I choose

Jessica-Ann from Todays Cranium Special. New blogger that needs more writing ideas
Will from Fatherhood & Other Common Terrors
Matt from My Journey Into Locomotion
Alex from Alex J. Cacanaugh
and then I guess whoever else wants a run at it.

DONE!!

Hallelujah! We are done! 26 letters down! All I have to say is please don't start with numbers. No it was awesome. I enjoyed coming up with things to write about from a topic I just thought about. It was overall very rewarding. Meeting a lot of down to earth people and feeling all the more popular from comments and followers, it feels great knowing your writing is being read.

I first heard about the A to Z Challenge by commenting on one of my co-workers blog. I wanted to participate but wasn't completely sure if I wanted to let everyone know, just in case I decided it didn't work for me. A couple days later after starting the challenge I wrote Arlee Bird and told him I would give it a try. Thankfully thanks to my new followers and commenter's I trudged along and finished the challenge. It was hard work, but the reward I feel now is terrific! I also enjoyed reading other peoples blogs and seeing what is going on in other peoples lives and in a different country.

This challenge has allowed me to step outside my box of ideas. Overall great idea.

Thanks

ZZZZZZZZ

So really that's isn't a word. But its an activity if that counts. I just finished working four 8 hour shifts in a row, and I am extremely happy to have Saturday off. Its not a regular occurrence to get a day in the weekend off, but they seemed to have forgotten that little fact, and thanks to me picking up hours this week they can now not ask me to work. So my plans? Sleeping and relaxing. I plan on getting up in the morning, making breakfast for my parents and then hanging out with a friend and watching movies. It should make up for the week I have had.

About this week as said in my post before that it was rough, but I am counting down the days until I get to go to Mexico for my brothers wedding and just lounge on the beach with my family. It will be a break away from everything. Also on the bright side one of my best friends will be working there when I return which should liven up my day a whole lot.

What are your plans for this weekend?

#%$!@

Yes, my title doesn't make sense, but that's because I don't have a word to emphasis my frustrations. Also these symbols often represent cursing. Of course I don't do that so this is an alternative.

Today at work was horrible. For one main reason. TRANSFER BUGGIES #%$!@ OK so that technically isn't a curse word in many of your eyes but it was just added to my inventory of words today. So the main concept of this idea is we have to transfer all items from the cart into another cart in order to make sure there is nothing hidden underneath. You must be thinking, 'well whats the problem? That's a good concept.' Wrong, I work at a bulk store, where everything you buy is LARGE! OK so for example, Fertilizer, Water, Pop, Flour is now double in size. Its crazy and we have to lift it! Normally here is where I would start doing 10 survival reasons but unfortunately I don't have any. So here is my 10 complaints.

1. 'Oh you don't want your large bags of fertilizer to far up the buggy? Hmm let me think about that. TOO BAD! I just lifted 4 bags of it into a different cart as part of my job, you have a problem with it you come move it yourself big strong man!'

2. Oh OK I see, you went shopping and while passing you picked up a nice hot chicken, thinking well I can eat this for dinner. But when you come up front, noooooo you can't by a $6 chicken so you make me go all the way back through the warehouse to drop it off and then complain that I didn't pack your cart.

3. OK so let me get this right, you want me to pack your cart but only in the way you want it done? Would it not be easier to do it yourself?

4. My Job. Is to PACK. Your Groceries. I am good at it. I will not put your eggs or bread at the bottom and then stack a box of peanut butter on top. So go back around to the other side of the till, and let me do. MY JOB!!!

OK so this is going to be a little bit of how to fix your day.

5. As your walking just accidentally pick up a glass container, look around and smash it on the floor. OK I never did that, but I was eyeing one today.

6. Ask your supervisor if they have a gun, a real one. If not then an arrow will do. This is the time for them to put you in the hospital. QUICK. NOW. DO IT!!!!!

7. Push carts. Now a lot of times this will just make you more upset, especially with how many idiots there are in the world. However the idea of pushing carts into each other forcefully is so peaceful and exciting its terrific!!!

8. SCREAM. Of course in your head. Otherwise everyone kind of looks at you funny. A way of hiding it is whistling!

9. Run. So we technically are not allowed to run in the warehouse for safety reasons but when a member wants a new cheese its kind of an excuse.

10. Finally for number ten, be like cyclops and just burn everything with your eyes. Take off those fancy sunglasses and GO!!!

So I apologize for my complaints or anything that may offend you. It was not intentional. Work has just been driving me crazy lately. I think its time for a change.

You

You, also now a days known as 'u' which is really teaching everyone to be illiterate. Hmmm, what is society coming to. Anyways, that's besides the point. 'You' can be used in several cases throughout life, such as if you forget someones name "Hey.....You." Its perfect! An easy way out of not knowing their name. However today's post is pretty generic and I wouldn't be surprised at the idea of several people writing about this idea.

You, yourself as a general person is very important. A lot of the time we are constantly looking to help someone else and make their lives easier, but really are we doing them any good if we don't take care of ourselves first? For example, am I really helping work if I got mentally insane? Which of course is exactly what work is doing. What about our health? Yes those brownies may taste good, but there is always portion sizes. Is it really that important to have that second helping of deep fried fries over your own personal health? We need to take care of ourselves first before we can help others.

So do yourself a favor and this weekend enjoy 'ur' life.

X-Men

So I got this idea from a guy at work, and considering I really never had any clue as to what I was going to write I am going to go with this one.

X-Men was created by Stan Lee and comes from Marvel. The main concept of this series is professor Xavier creates a safe haven called Westchester mansion where he finds people with super human powers and teaches them to use it for the greater good, and to prove to the world that heroes do exist. The reason for the name 'X' Men comes from the X Gene which provides these super human team with their specific talents, and was assumed to be caused by radiation exposure. Within the team was Professor Xavier, Cyclops, Jean Grey, Iceman, Angel, Beast, Storm, Wolverine and many more.

Just like any superhero story there was a rival team. The team that caused havoc for the world and believed it was the right thing, Magneto and the Brotherhood of Mutants.

Throughout the past four decades X-Men has travelled through from comics, TV series, Video Games, Book to the well known series of movies. They haven't been forgotten and never shall.

W is for Would You Rather

OK so a little game my friends and I like to play over text messaging is a game called 'Would You Rather.' Basically the idea of the game is you ask your friend a question to get to know them a little bit better. Your questions could be nice and cuddly such as 'would you rather hug a puppy or hug the person that means the most to you.' However because of who I am, and the friends I hang out with our questions really aren't that nice. They normally go in the context such as 'would you rather have a 1000 crickets in your room or have 1 tarantula in your house that you don't know where it is?' All these questions are normally ones that get the opponent to really think about what they want.

One of my best friends started this game with me a couple months ago, and it is normally just played between us, such as one day we played this game for 6 hours......yeah I know what your thinking, no life right? That would have to be correct. However I have taken the courtesy to extend this great game to a couple of my other friends, and of course because you eventually run out of ideas yourself it sometimes includes the whole family. You start off asking a would you rather, and then once answered by the opponent then it is their turn to ask the question.

Try it out! Here is a few examples:

1. Lose a finger or jump head first into a pool of tobacco spit
2. Take the life of someone unknown by pushing a button or losing the love of your life
3. Get exactly what you wished for in life or be able to have the power to give someone you care about what they have always wanted

V is for Vicious

You can have many topics that start with vicious. Such as vicious fish, including the blow fish to sharks. You can talk about vicious people such as managers, to people you meet on the street. However I am going to talk about vicious circles.

Many times are mind goes around and around in a vicious circle. Such as the purpose of a rose in a romantic relationship: "she loves me, she loves me not." Or our vicious circle of life, we can hate life at one moment and completely see no purpose in it, and then the next minute everything makes sense. This happens to me a lot of the time. Some people must think I am bi-polar but the truth is that I am a stereotypical girl, who just can't make up her mind. I can completely fall for someone one moment and then the next not understand why. Or one minute completely love work or look optimistic about school but then hate it. This vicious circle is what completes many people. If we didn't have the indecisiveness where would we be? Living like smurfs in a smurf hut. Okay so I am rambling. So right now the vicious circle comes with school. Should I take another year off and go to the better school? Hmmm, what do you all think. Toronto film school where the best success story I heard was a student writing for the TV show Flash point or to a school where students made District 9? Should I pay $30000 for a year and go to Toronto or $60000 and go to Vancouver?

U is for Unique

So my post is extremely late, considering it is Sunday night and this was suppose to be written yesterday. However being extremely busy this weekend I hope you guys will forgive my glitch.

So I have been told many times that I am unique. Now a lot of the time it is said in a way that would question if its an insult or just a statement. In the end I always assume its a statement. I have a very unique understanding of life, and whats planned for everyone while were here. Back a couple years ago, I knew friends were important, but I just figured that eventually I would lose all my current friends, so what was the point of prolonging the inevitable? The way I looked at it, was that in each faze of your life you would have a different set of friends that appeal to what your doing. Also that life should not be taken for granted. We are all going to die, one way or the other. However we do have a choice of which way we are going to go out. In my opinion why not take risks in life? Your going to die anyways you mind as well go out with a bang doing something you love.

Such as, in life I want to experience different types of pain: shot, stabbed, hit by a car, breaking a bone, falling through glass. I always think that there is terrible things in this world. If you experience them all then there will be no surprises.

Now when in comes down to friends I was seriously mistaken. I have terrific friends now, from both work, and old friends from when I was in school. I don't normally freak out, but the idea of meeting new people scares me. What if I meet new people and end up losing the friends I have now? Could be possible. I don't know my limit, and I am sure I have one, after all I am not really that great with groups. Yesterday I was so busy cause I was preparing for one large hangout. This past week was my birthday and the way I thought I would celebrate it was to hang out with everyone that I enjoy. It was fun, I enjoyed hanging out with them. However I found that in groups I am really quiet. Why? Well I don't really know, maybe its because there are funnier people there, that would just make me look like an idiot. Or maybe its the fact that when I am with different people I am slightly different, to accommodate to them. So when everyone joins together I don't know how I am suppose to act. Anyways I had a good time, and as much as I didn't get to do all the things I was hoping to, I did get some great photos.

There is always something unique

T is for Trust

So we are coming close to the end of the A to Z challenge, and to tell u the truth this has been quite difficult for me. I never know really what to write until I sit down and think about it. Part of my problem is most likely that I didn't plan, but here goes. Trust as everyone tells it, is given from the start, but if that trust is lost it takes a lot to have that again. Now I am not sure if it is just me but trust is something I have a hard time with in certain areas. Its put into categories. Such as I have an easy time believing in second chances with people. If they lie to me, or break a promise I might be mad or disappointed for a while but in the end I always believe in them again, time and again.

However if they say something about me, I find it false. It may be true but I don't trust them enough to believe it. Is this not trusting in myself or them? Many scenarios may be named, but I really want to know your opinion of trust.

S is for Shiloh

It has been seven months since one of my best friends pasted away. He was white, fury and one of the best friends anyone could ever have. My family had Shiloh since I was 6 years old. Growing up with a best friend like that has an effect on people. He was all I ever knew, and to tell you the truth the only memory I can remember from my childhood, is colouring by the stairs waiting for my parents to come home with a surprise. The surprise fit into the palm of our hands and was the cutest thing I have ever seen.

Shiloh laid at the end of our bed every night, snuggled up to us when we were down or lonely and loved to lay on clean clothes. As a Bichon Frises he never shed, which helped us, but he had horrible breathe. It was only the year before his death that I fully enjoyed hanging out with him. As a kid I was always a little too ruff with him, but he would always be there when I wanted him. Waiting at the top of the stairs for me when I got home, laying beside me for days on the couch when I had my wisdom teeth out. His presence in the house just helped.

The night before his death, I knew he was sick. He could barely lift his head. I knew this was not good, but I had hope that this was just another one of his spurts. In the last couple months he would get really sick for a couple days and then be back to his usual self again, running around, barking. However I knew this night was different. One of my friends invited me out that night to church and I accepted. Not wanting to leave him, but with the promise from my mom that he would be alright I left Shiloh, as he looked at me with his sad puppy eyes just begging me to help him. When I got home there was no change. I tried taking him out for his walk but I had to practically lift him up and walk with him in order for him to stay up. When I would let him go he tried to crawl under a car. Which at the time I found odd but found out later that its a dogs way of passing away. Later that night I was holding him in my arms, his bones pressing against his skin I tried to get him to eat and drink. He couldn't hold his head up enough to even eat. Going to bed I wanted to stay with him, knowing he was not well, he was shaking and the look of anguish in his eyes broke my heart.

5Am in the morning my Dad came into my room to let me know that he had passed away. Getting up and following my moms sobs I see his body curled up in a blanket at the end of their bed. Reaching out to his body I realize it is cold, and that I no longer felt his presence. I felt so cold as I never shed a tear while my Dad placed him in a box and put him into the garage to deal with when he got home. After going back to bed and waking up later I was mad at myself for not crying. Why was I not crying for one of my best friends? Was there something wrong with me? However an hour later my mind started flooding with memories of him and I broke. That day I cried about 12 hours. By myself, with my parents, with my neighbour. I couldn't talk about him without breaking down.

When my dad got home, we decided to get him cremated. Sitting in the car I was holding it together until my dad placed the box with his body in it on my lap. Feeling the weight of his body I sobbed all the way to the vet. Once there my dad opened the box and let my mom and I say goodbye to him. Both of us crying our eyes out. It was in that moment that I fully realized how much he meant to me. He was spiteful but also had a humorous personality.
This is my first birthday without him, and I thought it was an appropriate post. I will miss him forever. And for as long as I live on his birthday I will always eat, toast, fries and pizza. His 3 favourite meals.

R is for Restricted

Every time in life we come across restrictions. Either through age, health or sometimes culture. Sometimes in life we let these restrictions take away our hopes and dreams. DON'T. If you want something don't let these restrictions stop you.

Such as in 50 First Dates. Did Henry Roth give up on his true love Lucy? No he fought for her everyday knowing that the next day she would not remember him.

Right now a lot of the restrictions I am facing is from school, work and even driving. What are these restrictions? Well for school a lot of it is me. I am restricting myself from giving it a try, telling myself I am going to fail before I even get there. Which defiantly is not helping my nerves. It is actually making me consider taking another year off. Which is when work comes into play. If I take another year off then I am going to feel stagnant. Not moving, just going to the same job everyday. One which I only planned to keep for 2 month and has already lasted for a year. Work restricts me from going out and living my life. I feel bad about taking time off to go and enjoy the little things such as sky diving, or doing tourist things in my own province with friends over the summer. As for driving. Well many of you know that I failed my first attempt at my G test, and as humiliating as that was I am pretty calm now and ready to give it another shot. However from getting shot down the first time I feel restricted to go for it again.

So this is what I say. Take that jump and release your parachute if your in my shoes. Just forget your fears. If you go on through life afraid of everything where would you go?

So there is my ramble of an R letter. Thanks for reading.

Q is for Quentin Tarantino

I was really stumped on this post. So basically I am just going to talk about the famous writer/Director Quentin Tarantino. Now if you have ever seen any of the Kill Bill movies or Inglorious Bastards you will understand what I mean when I say this guy is crazy! Now don't get me wrong he is brilliant, and his stuff is actually quite good. Not my favourite but quite good. Everything he writes or directs is completely impossible. For example the blood shooting out of peoples chopped off limbs like a fire hydrant during Kill Bill.

Some of his writing is a little weird in its self. I was not a huge fan of Inglorious Bastards. It in my opinion was more stupid than funny. I can see what a lot of guys would like it, with how the format was layed out. However for myself it just didn't cut it.

The only question I have left is, is Quentin Tarantino psychologically stable?

P is for Perfect

I have learned at an early age that nothing in this world is prefect. BUT I have learned that in every ones mind there is people and things that come pretty close. Many times its family, friends or hobbies. A lot of the time however many people get the misconception that people in tv shows or film are perfect when in actuality they can be in worse condition then us. With all the media, expectations and influences.

In my life I have the 'Perfect' people that surround me. I have my family, in which I think each individual is perfect differently. My mom is perfect in her caring and humorous ways. My dad is perfect in his protective and always thoughtful and dedicating ways. As for my brothers, the oldest is perfect with his family, his passion for Christ and love of life. The middle is perfect in wits and humour, he is one of the most caring people I know, but hides it behind his humour. The youngest of my older brothers is perfect in his stubborn ways, he is fun to be around and always brightens my day.

My friends light up my life everyday. Surrounding me I have several different personalities that bring different perfections at all angles. From my two oldest friends. We will call them C&M. They are caring, thoughtful, nerdy and long lasting friends that will always be there. K.S is completely different then me but her perfection shows through her crazy sense of life and her upbeat happiness about everything. J.A.M is one of a kind. My twinsie is just like me, and I found her in the most unlikely of places. Work. Perfect is a glow for her, she sees life in a way that I never thought of, her energy and nerdiness reflect mine and therefore help me move forward. M&W.B. They are two great people. I met both of these guys from work. M is extremely artistic and shows so much potential he just doesn't see it. W.B has such a great and refreshing sense of humour. He's upbeat and funny and brings this whole new light to the term 'living.' A.K is just as nerdy as I am, and is my own personal Morgan. I look up to her in so many ways. Her perfection is chosen through her motherly instincts towards fellow employees, her sense of humor and neriness. Last but not least I state A.C. She is in her own way one of a kind. One of the nicest and most sincere people I have ever met. The perfection I see in her everyday, is her capability to get out of her comfort zone and make every ones day by her upbeat and sincere ways. She is amazing and needs to truthfully know that. T.B & S.K have been great influences in my life. They are all amazing in there own way, their kindness for others and sense of humor always lightens my day.

All around these people have inspired me to be who I am today. They have stood by me and helped me decided what to do with my life. They have been there for me, and have proven to me the true meaning of life. If these people were not in my life it would be a great shame, for they make me what I am.

As for all you bloggers reading and commenting on my post, I thank you. Your perfection is shown through your dedication of the A to Z Challenge and ability to keep coming back and giving me your full view points on life.

So thank you everyone. For being who you are. You are all perfect in my eyes.

O is for OFF

These past couple of months, especially weeks something has been really off. For some reason I seem to be a little more angry and depressed than usual. Even my co-workers have noticed and now they no longer come up to talk to me.

Back around Christmas I was in the greatest mood, I was jolly and happy, despite the amount of people coming in. I would easily be able to make people around me laugh until they cried. However these past couple months I have failed at that miserably. I try, but it always seems that I completely fail. I have lost my 'mojo' as some might call it. I get angry and frustrated not only with things at work but also with myself. If I do or say something completely stupid then I get angry at myself. In those times I try to avoid people as much as possible in order to not take it out on them. It feels almost like they are avoiding me now altogether. Which makes me think that I did something wrong. Which of course I probably did, but since I can't make people laugh anymore, I almost feel useless. It was the only thing I had in order to make friends and keep them. In my opinion it was the only reason I have friends. They want to laugh and I use to be able to give them that.

Now I just feel like the young 18 year old, that is too immature and juvenile to hang out with the older crowd and it sucks. So then that's when the 'depression' kicks in. Depression seems too strong of a word for what I am feeling, a more proper word is probably low. I feel low, and then I get angry at myself for not doing something about it, but once I realize that I have no idea what the heck to say anymore, I just go back full circle. This vicious circle is frustrating me. What do I need to get back to the way I was? Do I need a vacation? Do I need to spend time alone? Do I need to spend time with family, or my high school friends instead of always being at work?

Its frustrating that I don't have the answers, and I apologize for writing this for my 'O' post but I just needed it to get written down and out there for suggestions.

N is for Ninja

The term Ninja in the dictionary is defined as 'A member of a class of 14Th-century Japanese mercenary agents who were trained in the martial arts and hired for covert operations such as assassination and sabotage.'

A lot of the recruitment for Ninjas was from the lower class of society, as to not draw much attention. Training to become a Ninja ahead of covert warfare started from childhood, much in the same way as a Samurai family. They were taught not only survival techniques but also physical trainings, from running, jumping, swimming and moving stealthy in order to accomplish their tasks. Several times in Hollywood it is a miss conception of not only what Ninjas do but also with how they work. Ninjas unlike Hollywood worked in packs in order to help with situations sucks as scaling walls, in which they would use one on top of the others shoulders. A lot of the time they did not wear the 'trademark' black outfit, but dressed up as several different people in society such as a priest to gain knowledge of the enemy. Here are several terms used for some of the activities they would preform:

Hitsuke - The practice of distracting guards by starting a fire away from the ninjas planned point of entry. Falls under "fire techniques" (katon-no-jutsu).
Tanuki-gakure - The practice of climbing a tree and camouflaging oneself within the foliage. Falls under "wood techniques" (mokuton-no-jutsu).
Ukigusa-gakure - The practice of throwing duckweed over water in order to conceal underwater movement. Falls under "water techniques" (suiton-no-jutsu).
Uzura-gakure - The practice of curling into a ball and remaining motionless in order to appear like a stone. Falls under "earth techniques" (doton-no-jutsu).

As a kid I was very interested in the Hollywood form of Ninjas. Men and women dressed in black sneaking around doing espionage work on their enemies. It always intrigued me. So when I was younger I would practice walking and jumping quietly, sneaking around and hiding unnoticed to the people around me. Of course they could have just been ignoring me.....but I guess we will really never know. Anyways, this past year I took a couple courses in Martial Arts, and I will admit it was pretty fantastic! Rolling, kicking, spinning. It was awesome. The only down fall however was that although I wanted to learn everything, it was in a class with 15 people and there for a lot harder to learn. So in time I will eventually take Martial Arts again in a one on one course and finally become the Ninja I always wanted to be. Muwhahaha.........

Oh and Katana Swords were very popular!

M is for Movies

So I figure today a lot of people are going to be talking about either movies or music. However for me this is not just about what movies are my all time favourite, but also my point of view of movies as a whole.

As many of you know, my dream is to go into film. As a writer, visual and audio editor. These are the aspects that I feel I can exceed at, as well as keep me out of the spotlight but still in the credits. In film you have the actors and directors which most people see and associate with a great film. Yes they are talented but one thing they do not understand is that in order for that movies or television shows to have the full impact on people that it does it first needs a writer to give the actors something to read. The storyline is very important. If you didn't have a storyline with dialogue for each character you wouldn't have the show. The actors are not coming up with this stuff on the spot, they get into these characters created by the writer. After the filming is all done, in my opinion the next most important job other than the writer is the editors, for visual and audio.

How many times do you watch a movie and tear up or laugh? Do you think you would have the same effect if all of a sudden you have unwanted material in the video, or there was no sound, just dialogue? Would that video not get boring? The way the clips are placed together creates a storyline just like the writer. In a way the visual editor does the same job as the writer, just with visual effects rather than written. Music creates emotion, it give the movie its full impact. It manipulates the viewers emotions to feel the way it was intended to be through a certain melody. With having visual with audio, it creates the viewers to listen to the words of the song unconsciously to grasp the full meaning.

Today I had a simple seminar with the film school I will be attending in October, and two things came into my mind at the same time. One: Did I make a mistake by choosing Toronto Film School over Vancouver Film School just because it was closer to home? And Two: Can I do this? Can I get to the point in this career I want to be, with big time films or televisions shows? Or will I just be purely mediocre?

As for my favourite films. I would have to say my all time favourites are 'While You Were Sleeping' and 'Made of Honor' Two of the greatest chick flicks in my opinion. Both extremely romantic with a touch of humor to lighten the mood. What are some of your favourite films?

Also I would like to thank all my new readers. It means a lot to me that you keep coming back to comment on my blog, and it always feels good knowing that someone is reading your blog.

L is for Luck or Lack There Of

The way my morning went I had this topic by 10Am.

I have got to be one of the most unlikely people there is alive! If you have ever seen the movie 'Just My Luck' with Lindsay Lohan you would understand my situation. It was that bad! Wait..... it was worse! I couldn't pass it on to someone with a kiss. Just my luck exactly.......

So to begin off my morning I had to get up early, which anyone who knows me knows that me getting up early is not a pretty thing, but I got up early in a worse way than usual. I was nervous. Extremely nervous. For one reason, a test. Not a test of faith, although I guess it could be looked at as that, but a drivers test. Here in Ontario we have the beginners (G1) then after we get some driving experience we have to go for our G2 in order to be able to drive by ourselves. However after a certain limit of time you have to finally go for your final evaluation. THE G!!!! It sounds all magical I know! Who can resist the big 'G.' Trust me you must resist. ITS PURE EVIL! Just like whats under the island on LOST, Dooms Day, or the RING. Anyways enough of my nerd references.

So my test is about 40Min's away from where I live, so hopping in my car I take off. Once I get to Orillia and enter into the office to sign in, I realize that I need to get my car information. Heading back out I find out that I locked my keys in my car! Yeah I know, bad luck right! Don't get me started. So after freaking out to my parents while they are at work, I call a tow truck. A half an hour later they show up laughing at the irony of the situation and unlock my car. With a quick "Highlight of my day" comment and a little chuckle from the tow truck driver I happily sign in.

After waiting 40 Min's in the office to get a driving instructor, I learn that my driving instructor has a student. Or trainee is probably more correct. So starting off stressed out, she list off the rules and we go on our way. I nail parallel parking, 3 Point turns and even driving on the highway. I was flying high! Why was I so nervous to begin with? However when we pull into the parking lot she tells me I failed. Why? Because something my drivers ed teacher forgot to tell me was that apparently before you make a left or right hand turn (NOT A LANE CHANGE) a turn, you have to check your blind spot as well as your mirrors. I got the mirrors part but the blind spot? Seriously? She told me that I did really well with the blind spot when changing lanes but with the accumulation of the other turns that I fail. Also the fact that when she got me to do an emergency stop to make sure I can preform it if needed, I didn't know where to find the four way flashers on my new car. Not that she gave me enough time to put them on before she made me pull out.

So feeling very upset, not emotion, but ANGRY. I waited for these two moronic women to get out of my car and speed away. Irony? Yes. But hey what would you do if you just found out you failed after paying $75 for the test and an extra $40 for the tow truck to unlock your car?

With the accumulation of everything that happened in the morning, I gained an unpleasant stomach and a nasty migraine. Which left me calling into work sick, losing out on approx $50! Awesome! So know there is a little taste of my luck.....or lack there of.

You would be surprised how often these days occur.

K is for Kayak

So I had a really hard time with this one, so I am just going to write and see what comes up.....as usual.

A Kayak, made of solid wood or even fibre glass will get the job you want done. Whether it is for a nice little trip on the lake, or for a nice long adventurous trip. However the problem with Kayaks is how easily they can flip. With just a slight movement the one or sometimes two passenger boat can be capsized. It is this common scenario that people have to wear life jackets when using a kayak. Now the purpose of a life jacket as everyone knows it too keep the individuals head above water.

Every human is like a Kayak. We are strong and sturdy but with a little uproar we can easily capsize and make a mess of our everyday life. The life jacket we where to protect us, is our morals and beliefs. If we don't have those then how can we every survive and keep our head above water with everything wrong in this world. The water at first startles us, but in the end we find it refreshing and grow from the experience.

So how did I do for winging it?

J is for Journey

A great way to look at life is as a journey. Gods way of showing you what life is all about. Our journey could take us in different directions depending on our choices. Sometimes its great, but at times challenges sneak up to scare us. Jealously can creep in and mess things up, Joy can show meaning to the meaningless. Its part of human nature for us to go through different scenarios to get to the person we are or are going to be.

Jealously. That's an ugly thing, but believe it or not we all have a jealous bone, and its not just in romantic relationships, it can be in all forms of relationships. From work and family to friends. Depending on how you handle the situation thrown at you is how your tough journey will end. Since I have never really been in a romantic situation I really wouldn't know all the jealously type rage some go through. However I have felt jealous over guys I don't have dibs on, or jealous that some of my closest friends may like someone more that me. Its foolish but its true. You always want to be the person that makes someone laugh till they cry, if that person is not you it can royally suck.

Joy. Many times in life you will feel the odd sensation of 'flying high.' Don't be alarmed I know this is a weird and strangely not a common feeling, but its good. Life throws in a freebie every now an then, which is a nice surprise! Its in those moments that life makes sense! You don't feel like getting hit by a mack truck or dream of getting shot just to have an excuse to like being alive.

All life journeys are crazy and sometimes you may feel like just laying on the road and saying I give up trying! Which in many ways is how I felt the past few weeks, and to tell you the truth I have no idea why, but we all have a strange quirks. For example I get my energy from my friends, if they are not there, my journey drags to a dead end.

Hmm, now for the task of coming up for tomorrows topic.

I is for Invisibility

Now I don't mean so in the creepy way Clay Aiken sings or the scientific all new level creepy of 'Hollow Man' with Kevin Bacon. I just mean in the way, that I never really disappear, but in some cases just became invisible to people.

Now normally I am pretty good at this. I can go throughout my house, or even work and many times people don't even know I was there. For example: At work I am known as "giggles" now don't ask me cause personally laughing just isn't my thing all the time. However because I did not laugh at all during the long hours of the holiday weekend a lot of my fellow employees did not know I was working. I was having a "mediocre" day, as I have been for the past two weeks.

Although I try and stay away from a lot of people this following week though, they just keep noticing me. Those are the times I wish I would just disappear. It would make it so much easier to go through the day, packing peoples groceries without feeling the pressure to talk to anyone, or fill in the awkward silences. Yes becoming invisible would be kind of lonely, but would it not be great to be able to disappear and reappear when you wished? Having a bad hair day? Disappear, supervisors trying to find you? Disappear. Trying to run away from an awkward situation with the opposite sex? Disappear. If only life were that easy. Instead we have to suck it up and stay 100% visible. One thing I have learned however, is never wear a hat. It just seems to draw more attention to your face rather than take it away! Damn hats, why do I love them oh so very much.

H is for Heroes

Everyone has their own heroes, from fiction characters such as Batman, and Superman to people that actually lived and breathe such as Ghandi. Either way heroes have created peace in us some way or for some reason.

My personal favourite superhero would have to be Superman. Yes he is fictional but he is the 'man of steel!' He brings hope to the people of metropolis and in many ways brings hope to little children who read the comics or watch the cartoons. For a lot of people Batman is there favourite superhero. Now I am not judging.....well maybe I am, but Batman really isn't a superhero. After reading a lot of Batman comics in the past couple months I have come to the conclusion that Batman is just a spoiled rich kid who is angry at the world and decided to become a man wearing a Bat suit. He has no strength or super power. He just has fancy toys and money. To add to the fact is he is just plan cocky! What do people see in him? Hes a jerk. Superman yes has a weakness as every superhero does. Its Kryptonite, but at least he has super powers. Fire out of his eyes, super speed, strength and hearing, not to mention flying and the fact that bullets bounce off of him!

The Hulk just has anger management problems, he's big, menacing and has strength. Spider man is a weak kid, who just so happens to get bit by a radioactive spider. Why does everyone scream when the see a little spider.....(including myself) but when 'Spider man' comes its all praise? There is no difference! He's just a giant spider! Kind of gross if you think about it.

As for all the rest of the heroes. Well they are not that great to begin with, that's why they don't have a movie out about them. I mean yes there is the Green Lantern, the Green Arrow, Aqua man, Superwomen, Flash, Captain America, etc. How often do you hear about them? Not very much, because the world would rather hear about the 'Man of Steel,' the freak in the bat suit, or the disgusting flying insect.

As for people that actually exist. Well I would have to say my heroes would be my family. They are awesome all around, and I personally look up to them all. They have been a great influence in my life and continue to be there for me no matter what.

This is what I think about in my free time. Interesting isn't it!

G is for Gruesome Stories

My mind as you can probably tell is really random and somewhat off topic a lot. I may seem normal on the outside but when in comes to writing, I like to write the twisted stories that sends chills down peoples spine.

I love writing but for the life of me I can't write anything longer than a short story. After talking to a fellow employee who also writes I realized that there is nothing wrong with a series of short stories. After all isn't that what Edgar Allan Poe did? However considering I actually want to create stories for scripts and make movies off them, I am eventually going to have to learn to pace myself and be slightly more descriptive when it comes to the whole storyline. Drag it out a bit.

Back to the subject of gruesome stories. I enjoy reading them as well as writing them. In my earlier years I realized that I couldn't write....well from a third persons point of view that is. I was going about writing all wrong, so in high school when our English teacher told us to write a story from first persons point of view, I was surprised by how easy it was. Sitting down I started writing and before I knew it I had a full blown short story. Now mind you it was slightly twisted of course, but interesting non the less. In grade 12 I was given the same task, to write a story. So sitting down on my lunch break I began. About how a young religious man finds himself snapping in a big city and accidentally murders a young women. After feeling the surge of energy run through him he ends up continuing his spree with excitement thinking he is doing it in Gods name by ridding the world of evil. He cuts the bodies up and throws them in trash bags and slides them down a gap between a tree and the ground in Central Park, where he is later caught. Now I never got that story back from my teacher, so I don't know what grade I got or what comments were made but it was thrilling to write.

I have used religion as a negative in my short stories, but only showing how a twisted mine could see the good in it. I am a Christian myself. However after writing my first story which I will post again shortly, my two older brothers, who took psych proof read my story and told me that I got it dead on from the mind of the psychopath and proceeded to make funny jokes about me. Any who that's my mind and here's my story re blogged. Keep in mind I did write this 3 years ago.

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F is for Future

As a little kid you go through many hopes and dreams of what you want your life to be like at the end. However as you grow your aspirations change with you as you dip into different experiences. I was no exception, I wanted to be a director, an artist, a movie producer, a doctor, a nurse, etc.

As you enter into your final senior years of high school you really have to consider you options, look at what you want to do with your life, and for me that was a huge decision that I wasn't quite comfortable with making as I was exiting. So I took a year off, and its been great, working at a retail store with a lot of friends. Hearing them talk about reaching for their goals in life and getting a variety of mentoring they have all helped me come to a conclusion about my life.

The future can scare everyone from all ages, after all it is the mystery unknown to the world. How will you live your life? Will you be happy with your decision?

Part of me has always known ever since I saw my first non animated film "The Titanic" that film is a career I feel passionately enough about to fully succeed. I created my portfolios and applied to three different film schools this year. New York, Toronto and Vancouver. I was only hoping to get accepted to one so that my mind would be made up, but unfortunately I got accepted to all three prestigious film schools. Freaking out with excitement at first and then fear I had to talk to everyone that has really influenced me in my life, their opinions. After long discussions and many tears I finally decided to go to Toronto Film School. Lets just say my parents are thrilled that I am only going to be an hours drive away.

Although I haven't started school yet for the past three years I have been working with editing programs, trying to get the feel for them and improve my possibilities. At this point in my life I realize that editing makes me happy. Adding music to video clips, changing the mood of the video by the choice of music or even the effects used in the video. Now my videos are very juvenile, and I hope to film something of my own in order to have my videos grow with me. However these will do until I can think of something entertaining enough.

E is for Engage

OK so 'E' was a very hard topic for me to talk about. So instead of coming up with something catchy or slightly interesting, I am going to talk about myself.

As a child I was a very "awkward turtle." Not in the way of actions, but as in the way of speaking. I was very shy, not talking to anyone, writing notes to my family, handing it to them and running away or quietly slipping it through the door and hoping that they find it. I would always walk with my head down and actually almost cry when people I wasn't comfortable around would start engaging in a conversation with me. I said "Almost cry" I never actually did cry, but it felt like my body was slowly shutting down as my face went red and my palms sweaty.

Over the past couple years I have gotten over most of my problems. I no longer get sweaty palms and my face doesn't go......THAT red. I walk with my head up, which apparently makes me look like I have confidence. Which I lack very much, but hey as long as that's what people think I am not going to correct them otherwise. However one thing that I still have a hard time tackling is my ability to engage people in a conversation. I am very bad with talking. I never know what to say, what jokes are appropriate or will make them laugh. I don't want to say something that might offend someone or make them uncomfortable. Its very hard not knowing what the other person is thinking! So instead I normally stay away from conversations unless I know I have chosen the right topic choice. Which by the way, if I am quiet is exactly what I am doing. Although all my weird quirks are gone I still have one big issue. My hands shake uncontrollably to the point where sometimes its hard to drink without spilling it all over myself. I try to hide it but its extremely hard, but hey its easier to hide than a red face!

Well that's as much engaging as I can do tonight. Like I said talking really isn't my strong point unless you want to hear some rambling.

D is for De Maintenance

OK so I cheated a little with the bit of french. But hey its hard to come up with a topic for D, especially when you have work on the brain.

So about 2 weeks ago one of my managers came up to me. Now 1. I get extremely nervous around people with power, any power. Especially the power to fire. So she asks me "Hey Bethany, would you like to work a maintenance shift on Easter Monday?" Well of course because she is my manager, and I didn't really know what the maintenance shift required I said "Sure." BAAAADDDD Idea, I soon found out that the maintenance shift included sweeping, emptying garbage's, and cleaning the bathrooms.

So for the past week I have been dreading my "Cinderella" shift and I wasn't disappointed. It was slower at the retail store I work at then I would have thought, after all it was still a holiday, but at the end of the night you smell like crap. 1. I was sweating all day. Now I know that's disturbing, but hey these people seriously never heard of air conditioning. 2. You are taking out the garbage all day, filled with half full Tim Horton's coffee cups and food. I mean seriously! Some people are really wasteful. You just spent $2 on that coffee which you probably buy 5 times a day and here you are throwing out half the drink?! Crazy!

However at the end of my shift, since I was using two carts at the end to help me with garbage I misplaced the maintenance crew's keys. With a little heart attack going on in my chest I frantically looked around, dreading telling my manager that I lost the only pair of keys. Hey it was her fault for giving a mind wanderer like myself the job in the first place. Luckily however just before I go to give my soul away I find them 5 Min's before my shift is done. Can you say "Close one."

But now as tired and trashy as I smell, I am grateful to be home and 8 hours added to my check.