Saturday, September 10, 2011

Reality Bites

Ever have one of those dreams where everything was so perfect you can't ever imagine waking up......but then you open your eyes and realize reality comes around for another slap in the face? Yeah? I've had two days this week of that reality beat down. I think my mind is toying with my hopes and dreams.

As I have mentioned before in one of my post, I love the show Fringe with all the character interactions and Sci Fi dilemmas. Well this dream started off with me going to the Comic Con in New York city and meeting the cast of Fringe. Great dream right? Well it gets better! After meeting the crew and chatting it up with them, they ask me if I would be interested in working along side of the off screen crew to gain hands on experience instead of going to school. Now that means working alongside of my favorite producer/director J.J Abrams. Of course in my dream I jump at the chance.....then I wake up! Bummer right? Now I have to get up and head to my retail job making a little more than minimum wage, YIPPIE!

A couple weeks ago I went to the Toronto Fan Expo, which I guess most of you wouldn't get but its a small wimpy version of Comic Con in San Diego where you get to meet different actors. Well I had the opportunity to meet one of my favourite actresses Eliza Duskhu from shows like Tru Calling and Buffy the Vampire Slayer. She was incredibly nice and chatted as much as she could with me about her shows, which was all of a minute. Well last night I had another one of those dreams toying with my mind. Again at the New York Comic Con I had the opportunity to talk to Eliza again, and this time we talked for hours and she was giving me advice for the film business and at the same time we became friends. The side story of my friends ditching me and leaving me to fend for my own ride home in New York city is just an undertone. The dream was amazing! And yet again I wake up this morning with reality pushing my dreams aside.

So lets just say I think my mind is teasing me with my dream job of working in the entertainment business and leading it with people that I enjoy immensely. I was determined that I was going to get accepted in the Film Production Program at Sait Polytechnic College in Calgary Alberta, but then when I heard the news that I wasn't accepted my hopes and dreams for the year were dashed and yet again going into my third year I am working at the retail store. I don't know what to think. I ask God to lead me the way he has planned for me, and even though I have been accepted to Vancouver, New York and Toronto Film School I just don't have the money. Yet I didn't get accepted to Sait and the only University I applied to I was accepted but the English course I needed was already full. Which direction is he pulling me in?

On the bright side I got a raise at work today. I am not a Part Time Cashier!


  1. I think the path that you're on is the right one. You've got the determination to pursue your dreams, and it doesn't sound like you're going to settle for any less than your dreams. Keep applying, and in the meantime pick up contacts and if possible do some film stuff of your own back, build up a portfolio etc.

    Stay the course, and keep at it :)

  2. Or, it could be your subconscience trying to light a fire undert your ass! Keep up the work, and the jobs will come.