Newfoundland

Yo Ho from the Atlantic! Where there is little snow and just below zero weather. Tonight is my last night here on the great rock, and it will be nice to be home in three days. Tomorrow night we will be heading off onto the great 'Caribou' that will take us from Port aux Basque, Newfoundland to North Sydney, Nova Scotia. The three day journey should be quite fun with 4 adults plus luggage stuffed into a small 2003 Mazda Protege.


My trip down to Newfoundland for Christmas was a lot better than I expected. Of course it definitely had its ups and downs from my cell phone dying on my third day here, to having to spend several long evenings with my aunt, who by the way scares the crap out of me. Internet is hard to find in the small town that my mother grew up in. To get Internet you have to freezing in my grand parents garage or drive an hour to a friends house....where I am now. This town is the hick of all hick towns. Where you would expect those older women sitting around a table drinking tea, knitting and talking about the towns gossip, "tisk tisk, did you hear about that Quinlan girl....." Of course the small town of Bichy Bay is pretty much Quinlans and Popes.


Here is a list of 5 things to expect in Newfoundland

1. Moose. These little cute furry things are not so cute when they are 10 feet tall and chasing you down the road. Never actually got chased but my friend did, haha quite a story.

2. No Civilization. You will not find anything here unless you are in St. Johns. The cool thing to do here is to play UNO and watch One Tree Hill.

3. Relation. Some way or another everyone down here is related to each other. Just sit down and mention your parents or siblings and some how they will know you and/or are related to you.

4.Unexpected weather. One day it will be sunny weather and a high of 5 degrees and the next day it will be a blizzard and all flights are cancelled.

5. Newfinese. "By's o by's did ya see dat nipper! Next ting ya know I looked aroun and dere 'e was. Gone!

Random Sortings

So on Monday the countdown started for our trip to Newfoundland. As you all know I am not particularily thrilled about this trip, but what can I say? My parents know full well my point of view of the whole situation but really don't care, so I just keep bringing it up every now and then just to annoy them.

This week my grandmother came up from Newfoundland. She kind of reminds me of an Oompa Loompa, and I know this sounds horrible, but seriously its quite nice for me considering the Oompa Loompa's are the only thing I liked in the classic movie Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. It always seems like I am complaining about my family, and don't get me wrong I love them dearly, but that doesn't necessarily mean I want to see them. However when my grandmother comes up to visit she wakes up at 7:30am and expects everyone else to be up as well. Why? Just so she can tell us what to do! Now she isn't as bad as she use to be but its still annoys the heck out of me. Excuse me? This is my house and your telling me what I should be doing?

To top it all I got into a huge argument with my parents this week. Coming home from work, my mom blows up at me for her days problems. All this made me do, was turn around and head right back to work. "Oh whats this? there is happy co-workers at work, that will actually talk to me without yelling? Great!!" But apparently that wasn't enough. Later that night my parents are heading off to go pick up my grandparents and some how my mother finds another reason to blow up at me, now this time my dad was home. Let me just stop and tell you something about my dad. He is very protective of my mother, so even if he had nothing to do with the fight he is now involved. So here is how this arguement went down. "I don't want you taking my car to Milton" [parents] "Your too involved with your friends!" Whoooooh okay so how did we just jump from how I don't want you taking my car to the fact that I actually like my friends? Okay, sorry is it my fault that you have shitty friends and I have terrfic ones? Oh no I got a text message during dinner! Who cares your not paying attention anyways sitting there watching tv.

All put aside I love my life at this moment in time. My brother just flew in today for the weekend, Christmas is just around the cornor and everything just seems to be coming together all way around. I love my job, have great friends, amazing new friends, my family rocks! and I have finally found an author that catches my attention full on. I mean yeah sure of course there is several things that would make me happier like a porshe 911 or being able to know what my life is going to be like in the future.

The future is a scary thing. Will I have the job I want? Will I find someone I can spend the rest of my life with and will love me for me? Will I still have my friends from work when I finish there? or will it be like highschool? I feel like I am growing apart from several people and I seem to be trying to latch on to others. Seriously what is wrong with me? I have never been strong in my religion but I just seem to be fading away completely. Now its starting to just look like my own personal rules, instead of what I believe. But all this is for another post.

Sorry for the ramblings. Felt like posting on my blog and this is what came out.

Nervousness A Waste Of Time

Today was quite....entertaining. I woke up this morning with work calling me, which at the time was quite annoying and yet relieving considering the dream/nightmare I was having.

Today was a long anticipated day, not only for seeing the hit teenage girl movie 'New Moon' but also for hanging out with one of my co-workers. So when in my dream I went to go see the movie with her and her friend she ended up getting sick and we had to leave the movie early, I was quite disappointed when worked woke me up. The first thought I had jumping out of bed was "Crap [blank] is sick" Of course I didn't think very clearly just waking up. Why would work call me just to tell me she was sick? So I quickly assumed that they wanted me to pick up more hours to take over her shift.

All week I have been...antsy for today, mixed of excitement and a little of weariness. So today when I got up I was freak! I didn't know what to expect. Would I know what to say, or would I just be my old idiot self trying to figure out something to say? Of course my friends were trying to comfort me by telling me that they liked me for the idiot I was so it will be fine. Of course knowing me I was still all nervous walking into the theater, but as soon as I met up with my friend everything was fine. No problem. All my worries seemed stupid.

It never really made sense to me why I feel nervous around some people. I mean there are several people at work that I almost say whatever I want and still don't feel like an idiot. Towards my friends I have had for years its a regular occurrence and I learned today is apparently why they keep me around, that and my very distinctive and hilarious laugh. I guess my mind just jumps a head of me sometimes and starts to freak me out over nothing....which btw is really exhausting always worrying about what people think of you. Something I am learning very slowly, but still is improving, is who cares what people think? If they don't like you for who you are then that's their problem, don't change yourself for someone else. Especially when most of the time they just want to hang out with you, not your made up "better" character.

So overall tonight was awesome. I had a great time, and it was nice hanging out with someone I work with and have always wondered what it would be to hang out with them. Not so different but still different enough to view with my new sense of confidence gained over the past few months. I have to admit I like it, its giving me a lot more opportunities that I would have been to freaked to take before. Who knows where my personality will take me next? Perhaps to meet friends just as cool and terrific that I have or to a very creative job that I will love, and no I am not talking about retail....

Painful Experiences & Stunts

So I guess it has been long enough since my last post to make a new one. Plus I am in a pretty upbeat, fantastic mood so bring it!

This post as promised will be of the several different types of pain I want to experience while I am still....alive?.....young? Both definatly both.

1. Stabbed. I really want to know what it would feel like to get stabbed. Obviously I don't want to be stabbed near my arteries or anything that helps my body function, but I still want to experience that sensation.

2. Shot. Not only does it make an awsome story, "oh my best friend shot me" but it also would be pretty sweet. Does it leave you in a lot of pain? or is it like a numbing pain? Will I pass out? cause that might be cool.

3. Hit by a car. Now this is very important, I DON'T WANT TO BE RUN OVER! I just want to maybe get hit and then roll a little over the windshield. I don't want to be hit with a car that is going like 50km, just maybe like 20 or 30km, not enough to do real damage but just enough to give me a little bit of experience.

Now these next ones are not really pain that I want to feel but they are some pretty cool things I want to do.

1. Jump through a window. Now I realize that might be in the catagory of being in pain, but I am kind of hoping to be wearing something thick and a helmet when I do that.

2. Bungie Jump. That looks awsome, yes you could break your neck or die, but think of the fun!

3. Sky Diving! Definatly doing that when the ground defrosts, who doesn't love free falling hundreds of feet above the ground!

4. Stunt drive! that would just be awsome! Driving fast, going around sharp cornors at extreme speeds, YES!

5. Get caught on fire. I don't want my flesh to burn, I want one of those outfits that the stunt people use. Now that one is just to say that I was on fire! Cool story and shocks a crowd.

Well thats my many different painful experiences and my stunts that I want to pull off!

10 Reason why NOT to do a Cart shift

So today I had an 8 hour shift of doing carts at the retail store I work at, so here are 10 reasons not to be stupid like myself and pick up the cart shift on your day off.

1. You'll freeze! Most important reason, that's why it is number one. If you live in Canada like myself you know exactly what I am talking about. -4? oh ya you forgot to include the wind chill which brings it to -20.

2. Your limbs hurt. Seriously its like being hit with a truck.....although I haven't been hit by a truck but I have to say I probably would have preferred that. To tell you the truth though, I don't really feel it now, but I am anticipating the morning.

3. Its boring. I was bored out of my mind until around 5pm when one of my co-workers started talking to me, which I have to admit was kinda interesting.

4. People. Enough said. Okay I can't be that blunt, I mean the people that just get on your nerves. What comes out of my mouth is not what I am thinking. Let me literate for you, [high pitched annoying voice] "OH!!! Can I have a cart! (As she smiles and weirdly moves her head and grabs a cart. [My usually up beat tone] "Umm, its tied up right now, just give me a second. *while I tell you off for getting in my way and making my job harder.*

5. Snow. That is the white stuff that floats magically down from the sky and usually comes with cold weather. Here in Canada we get a whole lot of it during the winter season....and sometimes in April. Anyways its crazy trying to push carts in that, its like hitting a wall while the wheels are turning in the same place.

6. Carry Outs. Now some people know what I am talking about, but for you that don't a carry out is when a customer needs help lifting things into their car. Now thats fine, if your a man or a really butch women. I am neither. So lifting a 50" wide screen tv into someones car and then out again 5x is really not the best time of my life.

7. Carts. If it weren't for carts you wouldn't be out there in the first place. However because they are there, there just seems to be too many of them. You clean out somewhere around 8 carts, turn around and its full again! MAGIC! Wrong. BLACK MAGIC!

8. People with Carts. Now I know I mentioned Carts and People before, but this is different, the two combined is a lethal combination of idiocy. Seriously your two steps away from a nice warm door where you can place the cart yourself, do me a favor and TAKE THOSE TWO STEPS, its saves me like 30.

9. Cars. Now some people in their cars are actually quite nice, but others prefer to see people doing cart duty in the snow freeze some more while they chuckle to themselves in their nice warm toasty car. Either drive around me, stop or go. Don't just stop and then when I start to go speed off in front of me.

10. Lack of Teleportation. Just because I have a thing going with the nerdy 10 rules I have to add this in. You can't teleport if your frozen. Nor can you walk into the warm building when the person who gave you the buggy shift is holding the "things to do" board.

Hope you enjoyed reading this as much as I had writing it. Check back next time when I talk about the several different kinds of pain I want to experience.

My Music Choice for the Month

So I kind of got this idea from one of my co-workers blog. But I seriously have nothing interesting to talk about. So lets see if this can hold you over. Oh Also I realize most people have a different taste in music and that this most likely isn't yours.

Here is some music that helps me write and relax.

I am excited for Lifehouse new CD Smoke and Mirrors. Yet slightly disappointed that they lied to me about the release date. This song has a great beat to it.

Lifehouse - Halfway Gone


This song is a little older but amazing. I find that it works for whatever mood your in. Plus its got a great message.

Papa Roach - Scars


Gotta love Gavin DeGraw, the piano adds to my apprication.

Gavin DeGraw- Stay


This song is upbeat and it always makes us feel better thinking that 'Everybody loves me.'

One Republic - Everybody Loves Me


Love this song. Happy, nice beat. Everythings great. Its a Good Life

One Republic - Good Life


I know I know, its Nick Lachey. But its kinda got this interesting take on things. I used it for my English ISU last year for Phantom of the Opera. Okay you can laugh

Nick Lachey - All In My Head


Great song about the rain! no its got a great meaning on how no matter what you can't stop whats coming at you, but you can make it better.

Jamer Morrison - Don't Stop the Rain


Hope you at least enjoyed some of my music taste

Dreams

I like what Edgar Allan Poe has to say when he talks about dreams, 'All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream.'

Several times I will be at work, hanging out with friends or just sitting at home and I will stop to reflect my life. At those moments my life feels very much like a dream. I am normally a very quiet and shy person, but for some reason I have really opened up at work, from talking to people that I laughed with when I was a seasonal, to actually getting the nerve up to talk to some people at work that seemed nice enough but never had the guts to talk to before. So at times when I have time to stop at work and think about how well things are going for me it all seems so unreal. Apparently I don't think that one person can have a terrific family with three amazing older brothers, regular friends and amazing friends from work all in one lifetime. In moments like these I consider that maybe my life isn't that great, who know what my regular friends and work friends tell people when they just happen to mention this random girl from work. Its very hazy like a dream I don't want to wake up from.

I seriously feel like I live at work, so in my opinion it is a great thing to have friends there. Although it still surprises me that when I go to bed at night I have dreams about work. Its not so much the building though that I dream about, that is normally a haze, if not really there. Most of the time it involves some people from work, mixed in with maybe a regular friend doing an activity such as mini golfing, laser tag or as simple as seeing a movie. The worst part is that the dream was so awesome that when I get up I have this crazy idea to ask people if they want to hang out, but then when I get to work I feel like a little kid again asking the bigger kids to hang out. Really there is not that much of an age difference. These dreams though are bothering me. Is it my subconscious giving me what I want before I knew I wanted it? Or is it telling me to gutsy up and ask people instead of playing this little Mary-go-round? Should I just stick with my dreams and not venture out of my comfort zone? Being shut down isn't really all that fun, and I mean there is only twice I can get shut down from the same person before I start to do a double take.

Many things in life seem like a dream within a dream until one thing turns everything into a real life nightmare never to escape through as easy as waking up.